I was sitting here wondering why I haven't been writing this blog for the past few days. I've been going to the gym, playing a whole lot of Xbox Kinect, working, spending time with my boyfriend and generally enjoying my life. Then it dawned on me. Maybe I needed to write this blog, motivate myself and get the support I've been craving for a very long time now....and I got it. My mood has been better, my energy level is through the roof and I'm really very happy. Maybe writing this blog has finally given me what i needed....I good swift kick in the pants and an opportunity to air out the skeletons in my closet so I can finally be free. Free of the self-doubt. Free of the thoughts that were plaguing my day to day life. Free to do what's best for me and my body. Free to let my past stay there and forge ahead. For the first time, I'm not counting calories or being forced by guilt to work out. I'm saying no to treats and only eating when I'm hungry. I'm working out after work because I really enjoy it and I know my night and morning will be better when I do. I'm feeling better then I have in years. And it's only been two weeks.
Now, I don't think I'm cured of my addiction to food or my slothful nature, but I know I'm headed in the right direction.
I don't want you guys to worry, though. I have plenty of stories and memories to write about. Like the time I made cupcakes from scratch, ate most of them and told everyone I had them on a beautiful tray and I dropped them down the stairs. Or the time I found my Mom's old VHS tape of Richard Simmon's Sweatin' to the Oldies, tried to do it, and got winded by the end of Sugar Pie Honey Bunch, or whatever it's called, and it was the FIRST song. Or even the reason I think I began to eat and get the way I am now. I have them all in my memory banks and one day I'll tell you all....most of them.
XOXOXOXO
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