I can't believe I'm doing this....

Today I'd like to delve into that mystical world that few women talk about and even fewer men know about.  It's a secret as old as time and wise men from the tippy tops of the highest mountains of the world don't dare to ask about it or even ponder the subject.  Women think about it almost constantly, as far as I know, and they rarely tell each other this inner, deep, dark secret.  If they do, it is sure to be whispered and gossiped about behind their backs, only to make the divulger feel better about themselves and for rarely any other reason.  This secret is one I have kept almost my entire life, and although it changes from day to day and year to year, I have only told MAYBE three people at various times throughout my life.  Ladies and gentleman, I am about to tell YOU this secret.  I don't think I can truly gain anything from this blog unless I am totally honest and that honesty starts today.  Do I have your full attention?  Have your collective interests been piqued?  Good.  Here is my secret that I feel should not be masked or shadowed as afore mentioned.  I am about to tell you.......my weight.  My true weight and not some made up number that makes me feel like a really weigh that if I tell enough people.

I weigh 282 pounds.  This is the second highest weight I have ever been.  Below you will find pictures that I had a co-worker take of me today.  This what I look like.  This is what a girl who weighs 282 pounds looks like.  I need to let the world see me and know that most secret of numbers so I can forge ahead in this journey without anything withheld.  So....that's it for today.  Look at the pictures.  Make them as big as possible on your computer or phone screens.  That is me.  Today.  Right now.  Nothing hidden (except maybe the black pants I wear everyday MIGHT hide the rimples and dimples and rolls, but nothing else.) 

Thank you so much for reading this.  It means a lot to me.   

 

XOXOXO